Saturday, July 13, 2013

On Being Broken

"In the midst of difficulty lies opportunity."
-Albert Einstein

It came from out of nowhere. An unseen object traveling at such velocity that it blindsided me. I had been happily enjoying time with my family, when suddenly, WHAM! Shocked by the pain, I could only stand still in disbelief. It was only a small thing, but when a small piece of myself is injured, sometimes the injury has much larger and longer lasting repercussions. 

I carried on with life as usual. Sure the event continued to pain me a little, but not all the time, so it was really pretty easy to ignore. I went about my daily routines, adjusting only when I felt that little prick of pain-- a fresh reminder that I was not completely whole. It is surprising to me that at times I felt completely fine and at other times I felt a stab of memory at the unexpected event.

It has taken me quite awhile to realize that I am not healing on my own. This injury is too deep; one that can't be fixed with time or homemade remedies. I need the kind of care that only comes from a Physician, a Specialist who knows the body inside and out. One who can search deep into the places that I cannot see and find a solution that will cure the wound.

And so I humbled myself, admitted that I couldn't fix myself this time. Admitted that sometimes (most times) time does not heal all wounds. I sought out the help I needed. And am now on a path to recovery.

Psalm 103

Of David.

Praise the Lord, my soul;
    all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, my soul,
    and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins
    and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
    and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
    so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.


I happen to have a broken finger, but as I was thinking about training and injuries and life, I was once again reminded how the physical so resembles the emotional/spiritual.


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